Poetic Cosmos

originally written on February 20, 2003

Hope springs eternal
despite the infernal
worse the internal
delusions of man

Crushed under heal
spirit can heal
worse never feel
the contusions of man

Looking for signs
behind the designs
Closed eye never finds
the illusions of man

Back into the ground
no tears found
worse no sound
the conclusion of man

Untitled II

Alive in the fifth
but drowning in the second
Programming
went awry
only wish to die

Smile
you’re a god
one of a kind
come back down
only to find
Human fears

Concerns overwhelm
close in
drowning me

Meta-nothing
means everything
Caught in my throat
a scream escapes

Drowning in the fifth
Bring on the second
Someone throw me a lifeboat
Nothing as it seems
My soul it bleeds
Wishing, wanting, dreaming
of yesterday

Stoner

originally written on April 19, 2003

Did it again last night. Only three hits and I was off on an incredible journey of the mind.

Amazing to me how little it takes to send me out of reality and into a whole different thought process.

I fell in love with a streetlight outside my brother Chris’ bedroom window for a while. I vaguely remember some archaic wrestling match between him and Laura and then him and Chaun. At the time it seemed very barbaric and I remember thinking that it seemed very ‘circuit 2′. What it seems like now however, I have no idea.

Daisy was there as well but I was unable to form a coherent thought and thus was unable to communicate anything more intelligent than ‘I am so high’ or some other such phrase. Too bad because I really enjoy talking with her; she has some great insights and experiences to share. Maybe next time. I am still astounded that she is only 19; most of the time she comes across much older. ‘Wise beyond her years’ I guess would be an appropriate description.

Whatever. Just rambling now. Funny how my mind seems to skip gears every so often. I get on a train of thought that seems so perfectly clear to me and then all of a sudden I am no longer on the train tracks let alone being on the train. Clarity would be good right.

Ok gonna go now. Need some musical distraction or something. More later…the ‘Paul Harvey’.